If Not Now - Single

by Nick Walker

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Fear at night
Growing in my chest
Lest I should forget
To pay tribute to my pain

It shares your face
It says I can't relate
To what's outside this cage

And I know it's not true
It's not proof, it's not you
But with this cloud comes my doubt
And it's wearing death's shroud
If not now... If not now, when?

Day brings the haze
and all the fickle ways
that I leave myself behind
all the while I claw and scream

In such limited flesh
born chained in the dark
I embark with a hope
and life pulls that hope apart

And I know it's not true
It's not proof, it's not you
But in this cloud comes my doubt
And it's wearing death's shroud
If not now... If not now, when?

Falling into old pain again, as if we have to
Leaving other people behind, as if we can't choose
living in a desperate design, but is it true?

If not now
If not now, when will I see all I need is around me?
If not now, when will I be?
If not now...

Falling into old pain again, can there be more room
To let another person inside, so they can move too
I will trust for now but is it true?

Falling into old pain again, can there be more room
To let another person inside, so they can move too
I will trust for now but is it true?

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released January 7, 2017
All tracks performed, recorded, produced and mixed by Nick Walker
Additional mixing and mastering by Joey Distasio

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Nick Walker Portland, Maine

I am a songwriter living in Portland, Maine. I like to use music to explore and express the more vulnerable parts of myself and the difficulty and joy of being alive. I hope that this music helps you feel that you are not alone!

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