The Void and You

by Nick Walker

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My first album release - I hope you enjoy listening!

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released February 17, 2017

Many many thanks to the supporters of this album!

Mastering/additional mixing: Joey Distasio
Monoprint Artwork: Lucy Walker
Banjo, harmonica, backup vocals, trumpet: Jacob Ellis
Bass, backup vocals: James Sullivan
Bass: Isaac Schuchat

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Nick Walker Portland, Maine

I am a songwriter living in Portland, Maine. I like to use music to explore and express the more vulnerable parts of myself and the difficulty and joy of being alive. I hope that this music helps you feel that you are not alone!

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Track Name: If Not Now
Fear at night
Growing in my chest
Lest I should forget
To pay tribute to my pain

It shares your face
It says I can't relate
To what's outside this cage

And I know it's not true
It's not proof, it's not you
But in this cloud comes my doubt
And it's wearing death's shroud
If not now... If not now, when?

Day brings the haze
and all the fickle ways
that I leave myself behind
all the while I claw and scream

In such limited flesh
born chained in the dark
I embark with a hope
and life pulls that hope apart

And I know it's not true
It's not proof, it's not you
But in this cloud comes my doubt
And it's wearing death's shroud
If not now... If not now, when?

Falling into old pain again, as if we have to
Leaving other people behind, as if we can't choose
living in a desperate design, but is it true?

If not now, if not now,
If not now, when will I see
all I need is around me?
If not now, when will I be?
If not now.

Falling into old pain again, can there be more room
To let another person inside, so they can move too
I will trust for now but is it true?
Track Name: Doug Wellington
Take a gander down the dock
Find him working 'till she'll drop
Gotta make a stand.

She's says this town's too old for luck,
Don't know about love but she ain't the one
To say I can.
And he ain't no fool to go down a man.

All this time he's had to wait
pleading try it's not too late.

He can't see how
But he's feeling now means now.
It's all led back to her,
Back to her.
It's got him low today.

Every day he's 'ma'am's' and 'heys'
Night's are full with what he meant to say
When she passed him by.
But she's sooner to swoon than to catch his eye.

All this time he's had to wait
pleading try it's not too late.
These shadows cross my face
and they grow realer every day.

He can't see how
But he's feeling now means now,
it's all led back to her.
He's got this doubt
It's growing bigger now
Can this all end with her?
It comes back to her.
It's got him low today.

All this time he's had to wait
he looks at her and it's too late.
He sees past failing strength
and there's a road to another place.
Track Name: Flood Shine Sleep
Cold mud
Heart flood on the wall -
While you're fixing
Find me with the stars.

Night spoke, I wrote to God,
If I'm last, I won't ask where you've gone -
you're moving on like the sun shrinking in,
thought we'd last forever and forgot to begin.

All that matters is the fall -
Lonely lights falling down.
I don't know,
I don't know anything that matters.
Flood Shine Sleep, take me away.

Evening grace tasted sweet again.
I've been running down these holes all my life.
Tasting the cigarette smoke and yet
I can't relent, I don't know what's best.
Free for a moment that flies away
Flies to leave me alone.

All that matters is the fall -
Lonely lights falling down.
All that matters is the fall -
Lonely lights falling down.
I don't know,
I don't know anything that matters.
I don't know,
Flood Shine Sleep, Flood Shine.
Track Name: Ordinary Love
A letter to the one who's far away,
For whom I've yearned the nights and days away,
Waiting on a heart.

Dearly, I've paid with all my mind,
Chaining this inside,
Waiting for your heart in my decline.

My thoughts and dreams were never mine,
Prisoner to you I've yet to find.
And yet through this is living time
Which holds an ordinary love.

Lately, as I walk through sunset hills,
I take your hand, a lovely pill,
Clenching this air as if it's mine to fill.

My thoughts and dreams were never mine,
Prisoner to you I've yet to find.
And yet through this is living time
Which holds an ordinary love.

I see my mind wrapped up in time.
I see my mind wrapped up in lies.
Track Name: Piece of Me
Starry eyes
and perpetual lines -
am I on your mind?

In my chest
I’ll fall again
to the ache, permeate

My life with care,
It’s all I can bear
to feel closed in my heart.

You’re not even here
when my mind appears
to make you talk to me.

And you were the piece of me that died that night
The truth is that I can move through this alone.

I’ll take a ride
on the quiet nights
to places that remind me of you.
I’ll scream
I’m here
to the lights that pass me by.
And you’ll say
it’s been clear
to these lights that pass us by.


And you were the piece of me that died that night
The truth is that I can move through this alone.
Track Name: Tell Me
Bell tolls tonight
City glows
Lonely people
So they go.

Dancing skirts and trembling hands
Body rushing for you are the only one.

Tell me now
While I'm here
If I mean
Something to you or your world.
Say it soft,
While it's clear,
with your eyes,
Feeling this yearning tonight.

Slow your mind and pick up your feet,
Trust in the magic that's here and we'll hardly be breathing
In fearing the end of this dance
With you in my arms, with someone in my arms.

Tell me now
While I'm here
If I mean
Something to you or your world.
Say it soft,
While it's clear,
with your eyes,
Feeling this yearning tonight.

Tell me now
While I'm here
If I mean
Something to you or your world.
Say it soft,
While it's clear,
with your eyes,
Feeling this yearning.

Now I see it so clearly tonight
I've been vacant for years,
nearly losing the joy of my life.
In your eyes I can see my own form
How could I not see the beauty before?
Track Name: Hinged
My hopes and dreams
Were hinged on the breeze
And a glimmer of truth
Growing, recessing,
till I have been spent
Feelings unbent in a darkness unheard
And not much to hold it all.

Years of regret,
Dark loneliness,
Bred a sadness in me,
A child who's weeping
For loved ones to go,
For his heart to know
When the girl he had dreamed
at last intercedes.

I am a rock and I am a mountain
Born with a peace that I can still find in
Breathing, oh breathing, feeling this feeling,
Let it be still, please let it heal me.
Track Name: Fine Lies
He opens eyes in a world he can't rely on,
These broken pines surround all that he's known.
His world is ice, but it's nothing he hasn't seen
Oh, he's looking for change but still caught back in between,
For when he calls to me he says,

Wake up my friend,
And hold me as I leap
Beyond a land
That's been fettered by broken dreams,
As we flee from these fine lies.

The sky is cast in blue that holds his eyes
as the coming dusk will paint our darkening lives.
It's alright old friend, you've got the night to wait, please wait -
Comfort yourself, for your mind will keep you safe,
For when you call to me, saying,

Wake up my friend,
And hold me as I leap
Beyond a land
That's been fettered by broken dreams,

Wake up my friend,
And hold me as I leap
Beyond a land
That's been fettered by broken dreams,
As we flee from these fine lies.

Wake up my friend,
And hold me as I leap
Beyond a land
That's been fettered by broken dreams,

Please wake up my friend,
And hold me as I leap
Beyond a land
That's been fettered by broken dreams,
As we flee, oh as we flee, from these fine lies.
Track Name: Enough This Way
She asks breathless,
don't you feel this?
His eyes say no,
Glimmer, dear, now you go.

It's like flying,
They told you it's electrifying
that we'd fade without
the love that they all talk about.

She lives bravely,
sees friends marry.
Midnight, she prays,
let me be enough this way.

And they say
It's like flying,
They told us it's electrifying
that we'd fade without
the love that they all talk about.

This she knows
in doubting bones -
That final home,
he can't give.

It's like flying,
They tell us it's electrifying
that we'd fade without
the love that they all talk about.

Could this be flying,
It's cold but it's electrifying
can we glow without
the love that they all talk about?